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Not a good night. And this song popped into my year after 20+ years. Haven't thought of it since high school/college. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FHsip5xOenQ Lyrics: People I know places I go Make me feel tongue tied I can see how people look down They're on the inside Here's where the story ends People I see, weary of me Showing my good side I can see how people look down I'm on the outside Here's where the story ends Ooh here's where the story ends It's that little souvenir of a terrible year Which makes my eyes feel sore Oh I never should have said the books that you read Were all I loved you for It's that little souvenir of a terrible year Which makes me wonder why & it's the memories of the shed that make me turn red Surprise surprise surprise Crazy I know, places I go Make me feel so tired I can see how people look down I'm on the outside Oh

Many of you guys know I'm not to hot on the USA right now or Europe.  Some of my reasons are personal, others are political but I found a place in the world that I find infinitely interesting at the moment and want to spend more time there.  I've been trying to hustle hard to figure out how I can get back there and explore for an extended time.  I'm working hard to make my next "walkabout" six months long and to finish up a few things on my list.  I don't have the dates totally worked out yet but at least now I am starting to get an order in my head.  I probably can't hit all of these things up unless I get some financial support along the way through Patreon as well as through finding more side

I am in week one of six weeks. It takes about two months to eight months to build a habit.  My habit of training really fell by the wayside due to the current job situation and because of the fact I can't find a martial arts gym that works for me- besides in Thailand.  But I am tried of sitting on my ass- it isn't in me to not push myself physically (and I am sick of my fat not "phat" ass) so it was time for me to do something about it. But there are other things that need to come together as well.  I need to really put some things in place to move onto the next adventure in my life so I've given myself six weeks to get all of those things handled.  Interestingly, getting the eating and training

I had to shut it all down. I had to shut it all down because it was becoming way too annoying and sad.  It was being more harmful than positive, so I shut it down. Shut what down, exactly? Everything.  Kinda.  Sorta. The social media thing. It's shit.  Or maybe I just got too old? Naw, its shit.  It's so fake and phony and I've always hated fake and phony.  That's why I liked having my blogs and journals better.  You read it because you wanted to.  It wasn't just a feed that became mindless background "noise" in a cacophony of  mindless noise.  Back when I was young and beautiful, I did use my boobies shots to bring the attention, but people stayed for the content.  Then again, back then, I think people were more patient to actually read instead of 280 characters, or some

"I am not afraid to admit I have been wrong. I have been wrong about quite a few profound things. The plus side is that because I realize I have been wrong, its opened up new possibilities for me. And that's what keeps me fresh and young. It's okay to change your mind and your direction so long as it's done with intelligence, research and a genuine want of something different for yourself. As a matter of fact, I think its a part of growing. It's not about "finding yourself". At least for me, I always have known who I am and what I want. But what I want changes due to what I learn and honestly, I think that's healthy and the way it should be. We are not static creatures- or if and when we are, that's really what ages