The kick in the ass I needed.
It seems that I needed this all to happen to kick start me again. I’m not sure where it happened that I became sad because people were shit and not my usual “You know what? You’re a worthless waste of time to begin with” attitude that I used to have. Someone who has known me for years said to me on Saturday that most people aren’t worth my time because of the person that I am. And I know that, I knew that. I was talking to someone else on Friday night and saying how I felt bad and that maybe I am worthless because of how people treat me, but I try not to go down that path because its a slippery slope and when I just STOP and think: No, no, I’m not a bad person at all. I can’t explain why people are just such utter shit for the most part. But I need to stop giving them the time of day unless, as I stated in my previous post, I can do something for them and then walk away. People aren’t worth my time or effort beyond a superficial whatever. And again, I am better than all of them and all of this. And somehow Friday just, I don’t know, reminded me of who the fuck I actually am. And as sad as all this is, maybe I needed that.
So here is what I have decided to do:
I have not deactivated my twitter or any other social media but it is ONE WAY now. Probably stay here on my website and have it aggregate out by posting a link to here. If you want to read it, you’re welcome to. If not, you’re welcome to trot on by. I’m done with the people who are attention whorling, clout chasing little shits. I have logged out of my Twitter. If you want to comment, you can comment here in more than 140 letters like a human fucking being and stop being a living drive by tragedy. You can actually try to connect or again, you can fuck right off.
I finally am going to write, video, create like I used to and put it all on the table. Here. On YouTube. On Instagram. But its 100% for me. What makes me happy. I remember reading someone post on Twitter once years ago “Hell is other people” and that resonates as much now as it did back then. I want to talk about the things I really like, things I have plans for, things that amuse me. That goes here. As I said, I’m done.
Anyway, speaking of things I love/want. Ghost in the Shell is one of my favorite things ever- not the one with Scarlett Johansson which was absolute shit, but the other ones (mostly). I collect figures and I seem to be over my Wonder Woman phase- I think mostly because the whole modern Wonder Woman stuff really plays flat with me, but I’m still a GitS fan. I have been collecting figure/toys that strike my fancy and look what I found:
I NEED, NEED this. Its over a thousand dollars though. But its so great… I want to preorder it. I would cherish it forever.
Seriously, I need to get some side hustles going on.